I don't really know what happened. I just stopped writing. With numerous things that happened, I thought...this will bring me back. The this the that, the trip to the horse rescue, the planned trip to Wyoming for more wild horse photos, the defunct trip to Wyoming that never happened due to the emergency appendectomy ...something. But nope, nothing did. Until now! God has called me back though. He has put a message on my heart. I love it when he calls me. I love it when he gives me a purpose. This one has been hard.
It's still a good life, it's just changed. It's now looking for the good in the bad, the God finds a way and makes all things good kinda good. And I know just based on the last 22 days, that that is true!
My adorable, lovable, Aggie lovin' grandson was recently diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. What the hell! No, it can't be. Say it isn't so. Hell no I won't go! You've got to be kidding me! Are you kidding me? Wait, he was healthy as a horse. He's fine. He's perfect. He's the son of the King! He was fine yesterday! He's too little! He's too young! Wait he is perfectly healthy! He's fine! Thank you Jesus for a healthy grandson! WHAT? DIABETES TYPE 1, WHAT? NO, THAT CAN'T BE RIGHT? NO HE'S FINE!
And the reality sets in. No, it is true. For some reason known only to God, my precious, adorable, healthy, vivacious grandson now has Type 1 Diabetes. Don't get me wrong, he's still vivacious and living life just as vivacious, however, His (damn) pancreas has stopped producing insulin, it's shut down, it's died, it's screwed up, it's done! What! What the hell? NO!
Yes, move out of the "no" and into the "ok, what do we do now" and accept the inevitable, the true, the "life as we knew it" is different now.
We will be counting every food product that goes in his body and we will be grateful it is not something else, something that cannot be managed,. It's not something terminal, it's just a thing, a "blip" as my sister calls it. Move on into "I can do this, I have done this, it's just numbers and a few injections". He's the same amazing, adorable, lovable, boy who's moving on, accepting, loving God. Jesus I love this boy. He will make me a better person. And For me mostly its...
Prayers for a cure..."dear Lord, I pray today will be the day of the cure, almighty God, you are in control and you know the answers and I pray you will give those answers to someone who can change the world for all those with diabetes type 1 and those family and friends who love them. You have changed our lives and amazing things will come of this. You will bring our family closer. You will change us for the better. Thank you Jesus that the cure is on the way, and it's just a matter of time. In Jesus name, Amen".
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Blessings and love to you!
Encourage One Another!